Mixing business with personal life

Pharmaceutical Rep! What is the first thing that comes to mind? Good looking, very talkative, and out going.  For me it was Jake Gyllenhaal in “Love and Other Drugs.” He was super sexy in that movie, if you haven’t seen it yet I suggest you go see it! Well my little journey in life didn’t quite end up like Anne Hathaway….

A year ago I went to a crawfish broil with Joyanna, one of her co-workers was having it at his house and she invited me to tag along. On the way there she was telling me about one of their reps that might be there, apparently he was really close with some of her co-workers out side of work. She filled me in on him, like he just got out of a relationship; he was really tall, kind of funny. His name is Jagger Fox and that she would always refer to him as “F-O-X” from “You’ve got Mail.” I get there just kind of interested in what this kid looked like. We arrive and everyone is outside, I get introduced to everyone and finally get to the rep, he was a little intoxicated when we met, I thought he was good looking and oddly tall. We really didn’t talk but I did hear him say that he had been drinking since 11 am that morning. Explains the intoxication, we really didn’t talk that evening cause he left maybe 20 minutes after our meeting. I didn’t think anything of it, just a new person I was introduced to.

Fast forward to December of last year (2010), I got offered a job at the Doctor’s office with Joyanna. Well it’s been maybe 2 weeks since I’d been working there and Jagger aka F-O-X had been in maybe 4 times. The girls at work warned me about the other girls that use to work there and how they would always stop what they were doing to make sure they said hi to him or have him see them. I didn’t see what the big fuss was about, every time he came in if I was in the front and he said hi to me then I would say hi back. I didn’t know who this guy was and I really didn’t wanna seem so desperate, it just didn’t make sense for me to go out of my way to just say hi. It is now the week of Christmas, F-O-X comes in and I’m at the front going about my business and he leans over asking me how my day was going, what were my plans for Christmas. I do the small talk then my other co-worker Anthony wishes him an early birthday. I then say “oh when’s your birthday?” F-O-X says “in a few days” I’m thinking for a second…a few days is Christmas Eve. I then say “is your birthday Christmas Eve?” he gives me a look like I’m an idiot and just snaps his fingers and says “wow, very observant” and walks off. I was stunned like did that just happen, I was at a loss for words. Now it’s the week of New Year’s Eve, he comes in and we do small again and I say “oh happy belated birthday…which ever day it was” and he chuckles and says “you guessed right” and I said “oh well I thought you were just being rude” then he asks what my plans were for New Year’s. I tell him I was debating on going to Austin or just staying here…he then says “you should just stay here, maybe just keep it chill and low key” well the phone rang and I was the only one up front so I had to get it and he was standing around and when I finally hung up he started to ask me something but a patient walked in and he started to blush then he just said bye and walked off. Again I didn’t know what to think because he was so quick to walk off for the second time.

Its 2011….out with the old and in with the new!! Its maybe 2 weeks into the New Year and the more he comes in he starting to grow on me, keep in mind I’m still not going out of my way to say hi to him but if I do see him then we would chat for about 5-10 minutes. One day, one of the PA’s came up to me while I was on the phone and wrote on a post it note that read: “are you single?” This caught my attention and I twirled in my chair to face her and I shook my head nodding yes and mouth to her “why” she began to write F-O-X on the post it and I hung up the phone. I was really interested to see what she had to say, she basically said that F-O-X ask what my story was and she told him that she thought I was single and really “cute”. He then informed her that he was going to ask me out on a date. This was already beginning to get a little awkward because I’m still the new person and I know this is a conflict of interest and I just didn’t know how I really felt about the whole thing. Word got around the office that he was going to ask me out and I thought for sure he would probably back out because he knew I knew he was going to do it and apparently he wanted it to be a surprise but it wasn’t. When he finally came in not gonna lie, it was really uncomfortable; my palms started to sweat, I’m sure my face was turning red and everyone was just “hanging out” at the front desk. Awkward!! After he does what he needs to do in the back he leans over my desk and asks me what I was doing that weekend, I said nothing yet and then he said “how about you and I go grab dinner and maybe hangout afterwards?” I hesitate for a minute just because I didn’t want to regret my decision, after fighting with my thoughts I gave in and say “sure, I’d like that” he then asks if I like sushi, I say yes and then he got my number and told me that he would be in touch. He sends me text the morning of our date to have a good day, the normal then lets me know that he’s coming in that afternoon to discuss more details. He comes in and asks what time I get off work (5) and asks if I could be ready by 6:30 because we have to be somewhere by 8. I was thinking…what the heck... I still need to shower again, blow dry my hair and put my make up on…..I said yes I could be ready then he leaves and sends me text asking for my address. I give it to him and ask what we were doing and he then says “it’s a surprise…if you don’t fun then you can kick me in the twig and berries!” hahaaha I was shocked by that responses but just said “I’m sure I’ll have fun”

He picks me up and when I get to door the dogs are going ballistic, barking up a storm and bouncing around like jumping beans. At first he looks stunned, he greeted me with a  hug and he said “wow, you look really nice” keep in mind I wear scrubs to work everyday and my hair is either in a pony tail with a headband to try to accessorize, or just really straight. That night I was in a grey shirt that hung off of my shoulder and was semi- see through along with a black under shirt and my dark skinny jeans; hair was fully blow dried with a lot of volume and I got to take time applying my make up. Just a little something that would be fitting for a first date; just as gentleman he opened the door for me as I got into his car. We are on our way to the destination and we get to taking about how many siblings we have, how long have I been at the new job, and just our likes and dislike in people in general. We get to the first place and it was Kobe Steakhouse, there was a wait so we made our way to the bar. Once there we go into more depth just trying to get to know one another then I brought up the whole work thing. I explained to him that I really didn’t want anyone at the office knowing about our date and if it goes good then great and if not ok but I just didn’t think it was anyone’s business; shockingly he agreed. We go about dinner and it was so fun just goofing off and quoting movies, not everyone quotes movies but I’m a huge quote freak so to have someone “get” what I was quoting made me feel at ease. After dinner we get in the car and then he tells me the next destination, we were already in Addison and the way he was driving I kind of had a hunch that we were going to the Improv and  I was right. We get there and the line was out the door and we had about 30 minutes to kill so I suggested we go to Pete’s Piano bar for drink, they had a cover charge so I told him I would pay and he wasn’t having it, he told me my money wasn’t good around him. We head towards the bar and I noticed a fella I use to work with from a million years ago and I decided to go say hi, we chat for a bit then we start to head out and I ran into a girl I hadn’t seen in a while and of course we go crazy hugging each other and trying to catch up, we then say our goodbyes. Its now time to go see the comedian, as we are waiting in line I noticed a friend of a friend working the front desk to the Improv we chatted for a bit and she moved our seats closer and F-O-X was like “wow you know everyone….miss popular” we are in the club and it was a lot of fun, at one point I leaned into to him to repeat the joke and he kisses me, I’m thinking wow really first kiss….at the comedy club…..ok!

After the comedy club we head back to Pete’s for bit, the night is winding down and he says he doesn’t want the night end…..we go to Taco Cabana….if you know me at all then you know I LOVE Taco Cabana breakfast tacos! After the tacos we head back to my place, he walks me to the door and goes in for the real thing; we have a little make out session for about 2 minutes then say good night. The next night he sent me a text asking how my day was and I told him and that was that. Monday morning it was really awkward when he came in, he pretty much walked by me as if he didn’t know who I was so this kind of pisses me off. He leaves then I receive a text and it’s from him saying “hey how’s your day going?” I was thinking…. what the heck?!?! I reply back with “it was going good until you made it really awkward.” He then says “well I didn’t want to give the office more ammo” blah blah blah…a few days go by and he asks what I had going on that coming weekend, I say nothing as of right now and he then says “lets doing something chill like order take out and rent a movie” I agree then the day of the date I get a text from him stating that he feels like he has a midget stomping in his head and he’s going to need to reschedule.. All I could say was when it stops let me know. Have to love Texas weather…it is now the few days that it snowed/froze. I hadn’t heard from him in a bout a week then on one of the icy days I got a text asking if we were open…really?!?! You don’t contact me for personal reasons just for work…not interested. I waited till I got to work and I replied back with I’m at work but we are closing early. He then asks me if I could do him a favor, I say “didn’t realize I was your assistant” he wrote back with “hahaha oh come on, help a homie out” while I’m trying to reply back to him he had already send me the patient’s name and along with all the info he needed. I wrote back “I’ll do it this one time but please don’t contact me if it involves work, if you want to contact me outside of work, then great!” I’m sure he was shocked that I would write that, he probably has a girl at every doctor’s office that would say “how high” if he asked them to jump, sorry dude but not me. He then writes back “yes ma’am, don’t worry about it I’ll just do it tomorrow, didn’t realize I was bothering you” I say “your not bothering me, I’m already in the middle of doing it. I just don’t want you to make this a habit…your welcome”

Needless to say….after that conversation every time he has come into the office it is just so uncomfortable. Last week as a matter of fact, he came in and was trying to make small talk with me and he walked off and under his breath called me a “jerk” he leaves and says bye to us and I say nothing…then something told me to just text him and say “yea you too “jerk” “ he then replies with “why am I the jerk” I say “you tell me, you’re the one that walked away and called me a jerk” he says “I said bye to both of yall” I say “I’m not going to dissect what Kristie and I heard but it was meant to be funny…hence the quotation marks…” he writes back “geeezzzz…so when are we going to Taco Cabana at 2 am again?” me being my lovely self I say “is this for real or a pity invite cause I don’t do pity invites” his response “oh wow” my advice if you can avoid going on a date with a co-worker or anyone associated with your company then please do. Whether good or bad it can and will lead to awkward-ness! Looking back on it now I so…………

Should’ve said no a long time ago

Fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me!

In the spirit of “LOVE” and all, I thought I would share a moment in my life where I thought my dreams where finally going to come true and I would live out my fairy tale dream with my “prince charming”. When in reality I was thrown for a loop and I’m still on my quest to finding “the one”……

Every girl loves getting flowers at work (any girl that says she “hates it” is lying), loves it when their fella’s show them off to their buddies, and yes we all love surprises. So of course you’d think that since me and the ex were dating for quite some time (7 years when this happen) that I wouldn’t expect anything less right. Before moving in with Paco, I decided to live on my own that way I knew I could take care of myself and not have to depend on a man. (best advice every…thanks mom) I guess I have let the whole fairy tales in movies and books I read get the best of me and that’s why I get so hyped about Valentines Day expecting exactly what I’ve seen or read. At the beginning of our little conquest of love Paco was always romantic, do little things like leave a note on my car when he drove by my school, leave flowers in my car just cause he wanted to, or call me at work to tell me that he was thinking about me. So experiencing all that prior to me having a place of my own, I thought for sure he would go all out and do something special for Valentines Day. Like a man…. he literally waited till the last minute to even get me a gift, like he would hand me the gift in the shopping bag he purchased my gift at and leave the receipt in it. I don’t remember what it was but I just remember being so upset and hurt that he didn’t do anything “special”. I mean I took time and had thought about his gift since the day after Christmas, so at dinner I was a bit of a sour puss and just being snippy. Hopefully I got through to him and he would be prepared for the next year.

A year passes and now we are living together, I’m probably the worst when it comes holidays. When I want something that’s all I do is talk about until I see something else I want or until I get it. So of course why would this Valentines Day be any different right? About a week before the day of love Paco had told me that he already purchased my gift and I was shocked because I didn’t even tell him what I wanted so I kept questioning him about it. It got to the point where when he called me at work I got my co-worker Cassie to ask him what he got me and if I would like it or not. (I’m soooo bad) Paco’s way of gift giving is simply buying someone a gift that he wants to give, not what the receiving person wants. So 9 times out of 10 I always got what he wanted to give me. That year I think I wanted a Burberry scarf and aviator sunglasses. I’m such hinter when it comes to what I want, I mean I print off things, leave them in certain spots so I know you will see it hahaha and hopefully I get it or I’ll simply email you what I want. After questioning Paco a million times about what I was getting I simply stop asking him and started asking Cassie, he told her and all she said was “its small and colorful” what the heck?!?!? I didn’t want anything small and colorful, so of course my mind is spinning like propellers and I’m thinking of a million and one things it could be. I of course got sick that weekend and was literally in my death bed, I called into work that weekend and I believe that Monday and Tuesday as well. Valentines Day was that Wednesday so I didn’t want to be off and have my bosses think I was playing hooky because of the “holiday” so I forced myself to go to work…longest day of my life.

I’m on my way home which seems like a never ending drive and I pull up to the house and notice that Paco’s car is in the drive way, it struck me as odd because he kept talking about this presentation he had to do and he was so stressed out about it. I just assumed he would be working late and we have dinner late and I was treading going to a restaurant with ciaos on Valentines Day, the only thing I wanted to do was get in my pj’s and go to sleep. I try to unlock the door and he has the dead bolt locked, as I’m waiting for him to open the door I’m thinking he never locks that what is going on…..the door opens and he has this big mischievous smile and he greets me with a hug. I’m looking at him like what has gotten into you, I then ask him as I’m walking in the door “I thought you had that presentation you had to do today?” then after my question he moves to the side and I’m presented with rose pedals on the floor that lead a path to the rest room and to our bed room. I was standing there in complete shock that I start to cry because that is all I ever wanted him to do, the entire time we were dating. I was literally blown away! I stood there for what seemed like forever just taking in what I was seeing; he then leads to me the bedroom and he actually made the bed with the million pillows we had.  On the bed he had made a heart out of the rose pedals and there was card in the middle of it. I open up the card and at the time, not only his own wording but the card itself was spot on in our relationship. Inside the card was my “gift” it ended up being a gift card to Sonic (my favorite fast food place) small and colorful was the best description, it has slushes on the card.

To be honest I was completely please and impressed with just the rose pedals and that card. Come to find out he ran into one of our mutual friends at Target or Wal-Mart and she was trying to save him some money and she suggested he get fake rose pedals and he said “oh heck no, Yvonne would kill me”. So the fact that he went through some thought about this, he did pretty good. After wiping the tears from my face he tells me that he really didn’t want to go to a restaurant since its was going to be crazy busy and I said “I’m a ok with that, what do you wanna eat?” and I thought my Valentines Day surprise was over, NOPE! We walk to the living and I notice that he has the table set, lit with candles, and there’s a bouquet of my favorite flowers in the center. I of course start to cry again because I’m just blown away by everything. He then informs me that he cooked dinner for us, if you know the ex…..the only time he would be in the kitchen is to get his protein shake or to set the mail on the counter. He didn’t get all fancy schmancy with dinner but he did cook spaghetti. I didn’t have an appetite due to me being ill so I felt really bad because I only took like 3 bites but I was starting to feel really sick and just wanted to get out of my work clothes. After dinner I’m resting on the couch and Paco goes to the room to change into his pj’s and I yelled out “babe, can you get me some sweats and a sweatshirt?” I heard him making some noise but he never answered me so I called out to him like 2 more times, of course he doesn’t answer so I take it upon myself to crawl to the computer to grab my sweats, as I’m crawling I look over in our bedroom and I saw Paco place something in the middle of the heart then he tried to hide so I wouldn’t see him and I crawled to bedroom and asked him “what are you doing crazy man?” he then looks at me, then looks at the bed with the cheesy smile on his face. I ask him “what is that?” he says “your gift” I say “my gift? I thought the rose pedals, dinner and the gift card were my gift” his reply “well this is something I wanted to give you”

My heart is racing at this point because the gift that was sitting on the bed was a small jewelry box. I knew it couldn’t be diamond ear rings because he had already gotten me ear rings like 3 Valentines ago, it couldn’t be a bracelet because my wrist are so tiny nothing really fits my wrist, the only thing left is a “ring”. I’m looking at the box and looking at him, still with this smile on his face and I’m thinking this is it; he’s finally going to ask me. On top of the box was a note that read: “this is the gift of all gifts” oh man, my palms were sweating, my heart pounding out of my chest, I’m thinking am I ready for this?! Then I pick up the box and I open it and inside is a picture of the Fendi sunglasses I wanted. He put a picture in there because he had to order them online. I looked at him and said “are you serious right now?” he thought I was super stoked about the sunglasses I mean yes I wanted the glasses but that was not at all what I was expecting to be in that box. He replied with “what? You don’t like them?” I say “Paco read this note and tell me what you thought I was thinking reading this” he read it like 3 times and he looks up at me and says “ooooooooooooooh!! My fault!”

Aside from that, that Valentines took the icing on the cake! I couldn’t have asked for anything better, I finally got what I wanted which was something very romantic and it completely took me by surprise! For those of you that have that special someone……good luck!! Hahaha

I'm from Canada...didn't ya kno...EHHH!!

What a crazy year this has been already……………..well I have yet to go on a proper date this year but, I thought since I haven’t written anything in a while I would go ahead and share something that was suppose to be funny and turned into a not so funny situation.

A couple weeks ago a friend of mine purchased a house and was having a house warming party that was really last minute, the invite was sent out via text that same day. I didn’t have anything going on that night and I hadn’t seen him in awhile so I thought I would be a good friend and grace them with my presence. I arrive and it’s like a middle/ high school reunion, it was good seeing people I haven’t seen in ages. I get to mingling with everyone and then the alcoholic games begin. People are taking shots, bumping into other people and just really enjoying their time there. At one point the entire house is full of people and just utter ciaos, people going up and down the stairs, people sitting in the corner cause there’s no room on the couch’s or in the chairs at the table, people coming in and out of the back yard; you get the picture.

The night is winding down and it’s like 1:30 in the morning and I was talking to a fella from middle school (Jackson) and we got to talking about the good days, and my very first “boyfriend” (which was his best friend at the time) and why we “broke up”. He was telling me that up until that night he still didn’t know the real reason why we broke up……let’s face it, we were in 6^th grade and we were “boyfriend/girlfriend” which really just means at that age they walk you to your class or meet you at your locker. Well the reason we (I) broke up was because he wanted to take our relationship to the “next level” which was kissing; and I wasnt ready for that. After telling him the reason he was joking around with me, clowning on me saying “Yvonne, believe it or not, you were one of the prettiest girls in middle school, you had the whole cheerleading thing going for you, he was on basketball team, y’all were the “it” couple, you hung out with the “popular” crowd.” I said “WWWWHHHHHHAAATTTTT……….I was NOT SO cute in middle school…blah blah blah blah”. We continue to talk about just random things and all of a sudden a guy interrupts us.

This random guy comes up to us and introduces himself and then says “who are y’all?” me and my friend looked at each other like,  is this kid for real so he tells the guy his name and I tell him mine. He then says “oh, ok…where are you guys from?” My friend and I kind of chuckled underneath our breath just because it was a little odd for him to be questioning us as if he was a cop or something so my friend tells him he’s from Garland then he asks me the same question. For whatever reason, could have been the mix drink tied up with my personality I then tell him “I’m from Canada”……why I said Canada is beyond me, but I said that then he walked off and my friend and just blew it off. A few minutes later his girlfriend walks in and he greets her then brings her to us. He then tells her our names and where we are from, after telling her that I’m from “Canada” she gives me this look of disgust and walks off. I think nothing of it and 20 minutes pass and she’s about 15 feet from me then she starts pointing at me and laughing, I take a look behind me to see if she’s possibly looking pass me but nope, she straight up pointed and laughed at me. For those of you that don’t really know me, I’m small but I guess because I’m small I feel like others think they can run all over me, not the case with me so when the time comes to defend myself I’m always ready.

I look over at her and ask her if she has a problem and she says “no” but it was the way she said as if she were better than me. She had this little miss attitude that really didn’t set well me. I don’t understand why females always have to be against each other and feel like someone is “trying” to take their man. So I let her little comment go it was getting pretty late and me and my friend were getting ready to say bye to each other then head out, well I notice that this girl kept pointing and laughing so this is getting to me and I finally say, “if you have a problem, why not come to me as an adult, rather then stand 15 feet away from me and laugh like your 5” Of course she has nothing to say but her boyfriend decides to take it upon himself and tells me to let it go. About 20 minutes go by and at this point me and my friend are sitting on the couch still trying to say bye. The girl and her boyfriend walk by me and she said under her breath “bitch”; I said “I know your not calling me a bitch.” She doesn’t say anything until she’s on the other side of the house then has the balls to say “fucking bitch”…………by the way excuse my language I’m normally not a sailor mouth type gal but this night I was not about to let people talk to me like I was trash. So I say “Oh, funny you only speak when your far away from me or when your boyfriend is with you, again little girl if you have something to say come to my face and say it, otherwise shut the hell up” Her boyfriend didn’t like this one bit and then begins to say “Fuck you, you stupid bitch” And I say “pretty sure I was talking to your girlfriend not you, if your girl cant fight her own battles than maybe she should keep her mouth shut”

At this point we are just using every cuss word you can think of at each other, then they walk by me once again and he calls me a “cunt”…..keep in mind all of this because I said I was from Canada, I have no clue what they have against Canada but I stood up and then my guy friends were holding me down thinking I was really going to do something. I stand up and he’s a good 5’11”, that’s 11 inches taller than me and I get right up to him and say “you called me a what?” he then says “a fucking cunt, you fucking Canadian” so at this point I have to defend where I’m “from” right hahahaha so I say “screw you  mother fucker, you know nothing about me or where I come from” then he says “which one of you mother fuckers is her boyfriend and is going to claim this crazy bitch?” I say “I don’t need some guy or a boyfriend to speak for me when I’m in trouble, I know how to fight my own battles, unlike your dumb ass girl who is still across the living room while you look dumb arguing with a girl, stupid fuck” he says “oh that’s why you don’t have a boyfriend cause you have a fucking attitude and no one want to put up with your dumb shit” at this point I was thinking DAMN, he’s trying to make this really personal, so I say “Oh no, don’t get it twisted mother fucker I choose to be single, I don’t need a guy to validate who I am, or speak for me” then he got even more personal and I would rather not say what he said but somewhere along the screaming at each other he says something like “if you were a guy I would punch you in the face” so me being all bold I say “I wish you would hit, please hit, come on, hit me so I can call the cops and press chargers on your ass” I was really taunting him but I could care less.

The screaming match is getting out of control and he says “my cousin is one of the guys that lives here and he’s will kick your ass out before he kicks me out” so I call his cousin over and he is of course wasted and I tell him basically his cousin is rather upset that I’m from Canada then this dumb fool (guy who hate Canadians) says “come on man kick her ass out, stupid bitch, cunt!” and his cousin who is such a peace maker says “oh come on man don’t judge her cause she’s from Canada she’s a nice girl” dumb ass got pissed and started yelling at his girl then his cousin the peace maker kicked him out of the party. I swear I never knew people could be so judge mental as to where someone is from, now looking back on it as he was being kicked out I should’ve said “p.s. I’m not from Canada” but who cares I’ve never got into it was a dude before and that was pretty intense by far hahahaha guess I……………

Should’ve said no……. (to the party)

I've never heard silence quite this loud..........

It’s funny how guarded we can be when we get hurt….even for me. I’ve gone through my share of having a wall up with pretty much every guy I’ve “talked” to. As this year has gone by, I’ve realized what I want and what I don’t want in a relationship; I’m learning to slowly let my guard down but with this next experience I’ve realized how quickly it can backfire and make you want to put up your wall again, especially with the next fellas to follow….

A few months ago my friend from elementary school asked if I would be interested in attending a formal event with him. It was really short notice, the event was on a Saturday and he asked me on that Monday. I was seriously debating on if I wanted to go or not, I mean I still needed to find a formal gown, how I was going to do my hair, you know the whole “girl” thing. I was on the phone with my mom discussing the details and asking for her advice on if I should attend or not and she had asked me if I had any other plans for that night and I said “no” so she then said “Vonna, your not doing anything that night, when are you ever gonna get asked to attend something like this plus your not gonna find prince charming sitting on the couch” After thinking about it for a few hours, I sent my friend a text accepting the invitation.

We arrive at the location and everyone is dressed from head to toe in their appropriate attire. We mingle with a few people then head to our table, after dinner the party dancing begins. I noticed a rather sexy looking fella at our table, he was sitting across from me and I noticed he didn’t have a ring on his finger….or a date! I leaned over and asked my friend what was the scoop on him, you would think guys would be more discrete about trying to get information on someone but nope…not my friend. He got up from the table and either asked him himself what his situation was or asked the other guy sitting next to him. I was so embarrassed I had to look the other way, after that humiliation he then tells me that he is indeed single but that everyone at our table thought that me and my friend were and item….we decide to leave the event early and head to Twin Peaks to catch the rest of the UFC fight then head over to Black Finn for a few drinks. At this point I still had no clue what his name was so at Twin Peaks he finally introduces himself and says “my name is Jose” cool we talk a bit then things start to become a blur.

Seeing as how we were all dressed in fancy schmancy clothes, most of the drinks that night were free, we are all pretty hammered and the decided to all stay at Jose’s house.  The next morning my friend takes me back to my car and that was that. The following Monday he send me a text asking if I got Jose’s number and I said “umm no, he was throwing up all night and didn’t want to be like…I know your throwing up but ps..here’s my number”  he then asks if he could give him my number and I said “sure, but only give it to him if he asks for it” come to find out he emailed him that same day stating I wanted him to have my number…boys I swear.!! A week goes by and I received a text from I number I didn’t recognize. It read “so how has your week been so far? This is Gilbert by the way” Gilbert?!?! Who the heck is that so I responded with “Gilbert? Can you refresh my memory?” a few minutes go by and in the meantime I go to Google and do the reverse look up to see who the number was and all I got was a street address in San Antonio. . .. His response was “ouch!!” I then say “haha or not….” I got another text saying “you met me at the formal event, I was sitting at the table with you and ole boy.” Then it hit me, that’s the guy I had an interest in but I thought his name was Jose…

I send him a text saying just that but also included “I could have sworn your name was Jose, where do you get Gilbert from? That doesn’t make an sense” he replies back with “it makes perfect sense my name first name is Jose and my middle name is Gilbert, I’m a junior so I’ve always gone by Gilbert.” Ooook don’t you think if you go by something else you would introduce yourself to someone with the name you “go by”….just saying!!!! After that whole confusion I answer his question with how my day was going and we go back and forth just asking questions then out of the blue he asks “so what up with you and Daniel?” (Daniel is my friend I went to the event with) I then say “nothing, I’ve known him since the fourth grade and he needed a date so I said yes” a few hours go by and I’m at home and I just randomly texted him asking “why with the question about me and Daniel” he response back with “no particular reason” we text back and forth for about other 3 minutes and that was that.

It’s a Sunday afternoon and I’m at work and I decided to text Jose “Gilbert” to see how his weekend went….a few minutes go by and he responses with “its been good what about you” we text back and forth for quite sometime then it got to a point when I could have left it at that and not responded or I could take a chance and put myself out there…I did the unthinkable, I asked him what he was doing for dinner that night. EKK He says “oh, I’m just gonna make dinner and chill at the house” I then say (with the help of my friend Michelle) “how about you switch up your routine and lets go grab dinner” he replied back with “haha ok, what are you in the mood for?” we didn’t really discuss where yet but we decided the time and that I was going to met him at his place since he had only been in Dallas for 3 months he really wasn’t familiar with the area. I arrive at his place; we chat for a bit then head out. I’m very old fashion and believe guys should always get the door for a girl or a complete stranger. So as we walk to his vehicle he did indeed open the door for me, and when we got to the restaurant. The first date is always a big deal just cause you need to see if you vibe well with each other, I felt like we did I mean I’m all about a good conversation and I feel like on the date we did just that. I also discovered that the last time he was in a serious relationship was when he was 22, he’s now 28/29 (I forgot) I was intrigued and asked him “why haven’t you been in one since” he then explains about his job and that he hasn’t found the right one yet and that the last girl he was serious with and I quote “messed me up!” after dinner we head back to his place and watch the finale episode to “East bound and down.”

We ended up talked till 3 in the morning, just getting to each other. Then I say I better go you have to work in the morning and I don’t want to keep you up all night. He then says “if I wanted you to leave I would have asked you to leave a long time ago” I then say “ well I don’t want you blaming me for your lack of sleep” we laugh it off then he says” you are more than welcome to stay here, we are both adults and nothing is going to happen, I even have some clothes you can change into” I think about it and decided to stay, he gives me some of his clothes and I change and then we both jump into bed. It was really refreshing that he didn’t try to do anything with me. The following morning I heard him get up and he was so sweet, he shut all the doors to the room and was being super quite and tried not to make that much noise while I was sleeping. I left his place shortly after, the second I walked in to my house I got a text from him saying “if you’re still sleeping im jealous” I wrote back with something like “hey, not my fault” a few days go by and I sent him a text saying “have a spectacular day” he response back with “oh, I already am” who the heck is having a spectacular day at 9 in the morning!! So he seriously caught me off guard and I wrote back with “ok, then do something spontaneous today” his response “spontaneous for me if having a chocolate protein shake when I normally have vanilla” ooooooooooook he keeps throwing me for a loop and all I say is “go crazy with that shake” I was going to be go to New York that weekend and I felt like we had some sort of interest on both parts and I really wanted to see him before I left so with the courage of my lovely co-workers I sent him a text saying “I would like to see you before I leave.” He responds back with “sure”… who the heck am I throwing myself out there asking guys to go on date with me. I met him at his place and we go to dinner, this time we talk about our families and what our values are, pretty deep stuff. Like I said I was putting my wall down and taking a chance with my heart to see what will happen with this guy, I told him things about my family that not even my really good friends know. After dinner we get to in the car and he says “on our next date we will go on your side of town” I’m thinking ok…this is good he wants to go on another date…good sign.

We get back to his place, and he then says something along the lines of “oh, well I may come off as an asshole but don’t take it personal” so I say “that’s a cop out” and he says “what do you mean” I say “that’s like saying oh if im in a bitchy mood don’t take it personal its just who I am” he laughed it off then we started talking about other things and then he said something about the movie  “he’s just not that into”, like he could be Justin Long’s character and give me advice about dating. I was thinking what the heck is going on, I looked at the time and it was 11:30 he convinced me to stay for a little longer and I noticed every time he sat back down he would get closer to me on the couch, the last time he sat down he asked if he could use my leg and a pillow. I said sure, so if you can imagine his head is in my lap, he shaves his head so once he was relaxed…. me being me haha I rubbed his head like it was a turn table and said “wicky wicky” we laughed and it was really comfortable. I looked at the time and it was midnight, I had to work in the morning and I knew he did as well and he said I could stay there again but I didn’t want to wake up earlier than I had to drive back home then drive to work. He walked me to my car and we hugged then he kissed me, I wouldn’t say there were fireworks or anything but it was a good kiss. He then says he wants to see me before I go to New York and I say “we will see I still need to pack and I may have dinner with my sister but ill let you know”

I ended up having dinner with my sister cause her birthday was on that Friday I was planning on leaving so I sent him a text saying “I would love to hang out but I’m gonna have dinner with my sister” he then responses with “no biggie…I’ll just stay home….alone” if you haven’t noticed a trend here…I’m always the one going out on a limb. I go to New York have a blast come back and Tuesday afternoon I send him a text saying “hey stranger how have you been?” a few hours go by and he replies with “I’m at discount tire, changing my freaking flat” I could tell he was a little annoyed so I just wrote “that sucks”…a few days go by and again I text him with something casual and he’s beginning to give me the cold shoulder…I’ve been told once or twice in my life that I over analyze and dissect every little thing. So of course this wouldn’t be any different. A few days go by and I’m thinking what the heck went wrong…he was all about me shoot even wanting to see me again before I left then I come back and he wants nothing to do with me…nothing was making any sense.

It got me thinking oh maybe while I was gone “Ms. Wonderful” came along and swept him off of his feet…..cool about time, at least he could have the nerve to tell me something happened. Every girl needs closure…I was thinking for days that something was seriously wrong with me, maybe I said something too real for him and he got scared, maybe there was a simple miscommunication that obviously lead to a fall out…so many walls that I couldn’t break through. I was going to attempt one last reach out…one weekend I had something going on literally every night, Friday and wedding, Saturday a tacky sweater party and Sunday my company Christmas party…I sent him a text asking him if he had any plans that weekend and he replies with “Friday I have a friend coming in town, Saturday I have something for work” I was thinking so this means your available on Sunday hahaha so I just responded with “well enjoy your weekend” and you would think that he was be polite and say the same but I guess that would be asking for too much.

I would say a month goes by and I still haven’t heard from him…..something kept me  holding on to nothing really and not gonna lie, I was a little bummed just cause till this day I have no clue what the heck happen and he didn’t have the decency to pick up the phone and say “hey it was cool getting to know you but I don’t think its gonna work out” I would have so much more respect for him if he did that ….I did the unthinkable…yes I sent him a text yet another text….I’m seriously not the one to consentally be into someone if they aren’t interested in me…maybe with him it was simply “wanting what you cant have” well the text I sent him was “hey we are heading to uptown, your more than welcome to join” he responses back with “im gonna be meeting up with a few co-workers where you going” thinking back on it now that responses means 2 things: 1.) he wanted to met up or 2.) he wanted to know so that he wouldn’t show up at the same bar…I just responded back with “idk, somewhere off of McKinney ave” im with my friends and they tell me to go ahead and send him a text …keep in mind drinks were flowing…heres what I wrote “hey I really enjoyed spending time with you the few times we hung out, u seem like a really nice, sincere person. I was hoping to get to know you a little better, I don’t know if its just me but it seems as though your not interested, stay golden pony boy =)…see ya around kid!” ok the next morning I regret sending that message, and I know I seemed like “Stalker Mc-Gee” but I’m really not I just wanted to know what the heck happen…if you guessed I got no response to that text then you are correct…

I’ve never before put myself out on the line like that for some guy I barley know, I may never know what happen but I can say that for once in my life did put my wall down and I got hurt and its not fun…may we all start the new year off right and out with the old and in with the new!!!